A hard post to write...

There is no easy way to say this, so I'll just start....Dustin and I found out last Monday that I was miscarrying.  We went in for a sonogram due to some symptoms I was having and there was no heartbeat and no growth since our last sonogram in December when I measured 7 weeks (which we saw the heartbeat at that time).  We were obviously deeply saddened by the news and chose to wait and let everything happen naturally at home. 

I've always wanted to be honest and real on my blog, but this was hard to write.  It's hard to become vulnerable and announce this type of thing to everyone, and it feels unnatural - it is unnatural.  But, a part of me knows that the way in which I heal best is by sharing things, talking about them and letting people know our story.  That's the main reason I created this blog in the first place.  I hope to post my miscarriage story on here someday, as I feel like I greatly benefitted spiritually, emotionally and physically from reading and hearing about other's journey with this.  I hope maybe someday our story can be a comfort and hope to others in this area, as well as our story with Liam's CHD. 

We have hope and faith that our Father, Lord and Creator will turn this into good for us.  We have already seen and heard evidence that it has already been used for good, and I have no doubt God was with me, even preparing me and my family, well before this event ever took place.  My confidence is in His faithfulness and that His timing is always best, even when we don't understand it.  We serve a good God!

"Therefore, we do not lose heart.  Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.  For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.  So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen.  For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."  2 Corinthians 4:16-18